Never was good at saying good-bye

I hate this. You know, I thought that by April 25th I would be READY to go home. In a way, I guess I am ready to see my family and friends, but it's just that I don't want to say good-bye to my new friends. It's weird. For some reason, it took us 12 weeks to finally fall into a groove with one another. We now have assigned roles in the group (the joker, the smart one, the nice one, etc.). It feels natural now being with them. Why did it take so long to reach this point? It's like we finally reach a natural state of friendship, and then we have to leave one another. I don't like it. I don't like it one bit.

Tonight is the departure party thrown by my school. We are all getting dressed up, there is a buffet, and afterwards we get free admission to a club. I AM STOKED. It is going to be loads of fun. I actually went out and bought a new dress for the occasion (I'll post a picture of it after tonight). I'm sleeping over my friend's flat again so I don't have to worry about catching the last tube home. I'm so excited. We're going to get dolled up together and everything. Wow, I sound like such a little girl...Oh well, I'm excited and I'm not ashamed to admit it.

What I'm NOT excited for is saying goodbye at the end of the night. Fortunately, I think a lot of us are going to be riding The Eye together tomorrow afternoon, so we can say our bye's then. We figured riding the Eye on our last day in London was a good way to take the city in ONE LAST TIME. It's such a tourist thing to do, but it just seems right. Speaking of tourists, it's really funny how angry I get at tourists in London now. THEY ARE EVERYWHERE, and they tend to stand in the most inconvenient places, such as right in front of the tube stop, or in front of an escalator. SO ANNOYING. It's funny how I get mad because technically I could be considered a tourist. But in reality, I considered myself a London citizen the past few months. I lived here, not vacationed here. I think that's why leaving is going to be so rough; I'm not leaving vacation to go back home. I'm leaving one home to go back to another...

Well, my blogs will be winding down soon, like my study abroad experience is. But I'll be sure to write a couple more about the departure party, saying bye to friends, and my trip home. Until then....